I have gone through many things this week, felt many things that I hope no one ever has to experience. I have hit my lowest point and am finding out it's not that bad. I learned a lot about my friends this week....my "old" ones and my "new" ones. I have been called the worst thing I have ever been called. I have lost respect for someone I am supposed to look up to. I can say this has been emotionally one of the worst weeks of my life. It seemed to me like my entire world fell apart.
I'm not really going to go into any details, I just came to some very disappointing realizations. Only two people at most know what realizations I am talking about. However, although I have been extremely disappointed I have also come to another realization: it's not so bad. Life goes on and the people that really care about you, the ones that really matter in your life, will be there for you, even if it takes them time. They are the ones who step up and aren't afraid to ask "What's wrong" when everyone else looks the other way. Sometimes these people are with you through everything, and sometimes it takes time to reconnect with them...months, even years. But when you have found these people, you know it. You know they would do anything for you, to show you they care. Even if that means confronting you when you don't seem like yourself. Because to me those are the true friends, the ones that not only recognize the problem but make some effort to do something about it, even if it's just to say "Hey, something bothering you?"
After everything had been building up all week I couldn't take another day and Daniel came up to see how I was doing. We ate way too much food at Max and Ermas then bummed around the mall. It was so nice just getting to spend some time with him. He always manages to make me feel like the most special person alive and no matter what is going on I know he will always be there for me. I love you Daniel!!
Yes, I've learned a lot. I've leared that, as always, life goes on. You meet a handful of people in your life that make a difference, and all you can do is hold on to those people and if something happens, then just hold on to the memories.
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