This year has been too crazy. There is so much going on and sometimes I wonder why I bother. Why don't I just accept a fate as an eventual stay-at-home mom?
And then I realize it wouldn't make me happy. Of course, staying at home with my kids would make me happy, but I need to have other things in my life I suppose. As much as I like the whole husband-working-and-taking-care-of-me bit, I am too ambitions to just sit at home all day. Although it would be nice to not have any responsibilities.
I've been having a hard time with friends lately. Nothing overt or bad, I think I am just adjusting to a shift in the balance.
I don't often sit down and read these diaries anymore (as is evident in my own lack of updates in the past years) and I feel like my friendships suffer because of it. I don't know if it's because of the diaries, or just that when I finally do read some of the entires the change is highlighted. Change isn't bad, I know that. Most of the time it's necessary. I just hope my friendships haven't been falling apart because I don't read the on-line diaries. :-\
There's other stuff too, but I know once I start talking about it on here it'll be a "drama thing" and I don't want to cause any problems right now. Once I'm ready to talk about it I'll put something in here.
I'm not sure what else to say right now...things have been pretty good. School isn't as tough as I thought it would be. I really like my Quantitative Analysis class...we only meet once and a week and the rest is done on our own time in the lab. I pretty much live in the Quant lab and I'm ok with that. :) Research Methods is the worst though...it's so awfully boring and I can't believe it's a required class. Abnormal is ok...the professor is kind of annoying, but maybe he'll get better. And I'm not having too much trouble with Organic yet. Kelle is in there with me so it makes the class bearable. Official time keeper!!! CORBETT!
Also, every Tuesday and Thursday Kellee, Shauna, and I go over to Ryan's apartment and cook dinner (this is because on Tuesday's and Thursday's Kellee and I have organic at night so instead of going home to eat we just mosey on down the road and cook at Ryan's. Ryan is actually very rarely there and Matt (Ryan's roomate) is occasionally there. Oftentimes, Shauna, Kellee and I find ourselves all alone in an apartment that belongs to none of us. (Kellee has her own key so we have unlimited access...lol).
And finally, the love of my life. I save him for last, not because he is the least, but because he is the fond thought I want to depart with. Daniel boy and I have been together for over a year now. 14 months on the 20th. :) It has been the craziest, sexiest, funnest, most intense 14 months of my life thus far and I only see things getting better. I love him with all my heart and, although I know this coming year is going to be difficult for us, I know we can do it. I love you Daniel boy!!
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